Allah (Subhanahu WaTaala), the All-Merciful and All-Forgiving, declares in the Noble Quran:
Say: O My slaves who have transgressed against themselves (by committing evil deeds and sins)! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah, verily Allah forgives all sins. Truly, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. [Quran 39:53]
Every tear of a believer is precious in the court of Allah. Allah looks at the sincerity of our hearts and our actions.
My dear sister there is no limit on Allah's Mercy . I congratulate you on your desire to do Tauba. Make a firm intention to never turn back on your previous sins.
Method of making Taubah:
One should make sincere Taubah to Allah for one's sins. The requisites of Taubah are the following:
1. To immediately abstain from the sin.
2. To regret and wish one had never indulged in the sin.
3. To resolve to never commit the sin again.
4. If one have violated the rights of another person it is necessary to seek forgiveness from that person.
Perform wudu and pray two rakaats Salatul Tauba and sincerely ask Allah to forgive you. Allah the Most Merciful may forgive sins with one tear. A lot of people say that they are unable to cry, in that case, make the face of a crying person.
After the Taubah, if one happens to commit the same sin again, she should do Taubah again. As long as she does Taubah sincerely with the above conditions, Allah will forgive her.
Shaykh Ashraf Ali Thanawi (May Allah have mercy on him) instructed,
Pray two rakah salah with intention of making repentance and then supplicate as follows:
O Allah, I am Your obstinate disobedient servant.
I want to become obedient but nothing happens with my desires. However, everything is possible only with You.
I want to reform myself but I lack the determination to do so. Only You can reform me.
O Allah, I am extremely inappropriate, severely corrupt and very sinful. I am failing. Please, help me,
I have a weak determination to resist temptations of sinful activities. Please, give me the power to do so.
I do not have anything for salvation (Najaat). Please, provide me with the means of salvation from Your hidden treasures.
For ten or twelve minutes, make repentance arduously. Then say:
O Allah, Kindly forgive all the sins that I have committed till now. Though I do not say that I will not commit them again. I am aware that I will do them again. However, I will ask for forgiveness again.
In this manner daily ask for forgiveness, acknowledge your weakness, supplicate for betterment (Islah) and verbally recount your lack of ability, corruption and evilness. In short, debase yourself explicitly in front of Allah daily for ten minutes.
Make this Dua daily before going to sleep.
In a few days. inshaAllah you will observe that from Divine sources your determination will become strong without facing humility and hardships.
Whenever your taubah breaks you should make taubah again. Taubah is so powerful that it can take a person from the lowest levels of Hellfire and raise him to Paradise.
Make a U turn in life, wash off your slate of deeds - eliminate the bad deeds and protect your good deeds.
Make all your worries, doubts and concerns in the form of Dua to Allah - for example:
Yah Allah, I was astray from straight path for so long, but you have hid my faults and gave me hidayat.
Ya Allah, I tried to do good, but Shaytaan deceived me - only You can show me the path to Jannah,
Ya Allah, I am helpless and distressed and you have all the treasures of comfort, mercy and happiness,
Humble Request to All
Make Taubah from all past sins and protect yourself from disobedience of Allah -especially the sins of the tongue, eyes and the heart. Make Dua to Allah for guidance, Aafiyyat, forgiveness and steadfastness. Always be in contact with a pious Shaykh to learn Deen, make effort to acquire love of Allah. Make Istighfar on the past, have Sabr and Shukr on the present life and seek Allah's help for the future. Bring Taqwa and Haya in your daily life. Remember Allah as much as you can. Study the essentials of Deen from scholars, or from authentic books. Increase time for Dua for the whole Ummah. Read and listen to Taleem of Fazail books with the family and community. Explain the purpose of life and share the blessings of Islam, Quran and Sunnah with everyone -men, women and youth around the world.
Love and care for whole Ummah - serve humanity without any discrimination of color, creed, race or nationality.
Worshipping our Creator, acquiring knowledge to become an ideal believer, serving humanity, reaching out to mankind to explain the purpose of life should be our mission. Deeds done with a pure heart, sincere intentions, with humility, love and care fulfills the mission of life.
Seeking Forgiveness (Taubah)
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And Allah knows best.
Ask Alimah Team
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